A great book

I read a book in last May. Actually I'm getting tired of thriller and romance, so I decided to change for new genre, science fiction. Not that I don't like them, just that i'd been tired of the low quality of science fiction novels for this past few years. So, the first book I saw that attract my attention was The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger.

I have to admit, I was so caught with the book. 3 days in a row, stop only for life's necessity. No matter how i tried to rest my eyes, I can't. I just can't, I feel like drugged!!!

The Time Traveler's Wife is a story of a couple, Clare and Henry. Henry has some genetic disorder that make him to time travel and because of that Clare started to meet Henry when she was 6 years old. When she 20, she at last met the real (at the moment) Henry who has no idea who she is. She at first sort of frustrated because Henry is not the Henry that she met, for this younger version of Henry is sort of not matured?? And started there, they moving on but you guys probably want to read them so I don't want to spoil your fun... This probably some big spoiler, but I had to tell you all. Do not expect a happily ever after ending, because he died in the end. However, she keep on living for hoping to meet him again when she's probably 82 years old??<--i think. Sigh...so sad.. sound realistic, no?? It's life, sooner or later people died. Why the heck i tell you? Sigh...because I do have some regret for the ending. Anyway, do not worry. To make up, the author give her a new reason to live...

Anyway, this story really succeed on making me laugh and cry. Hate to admit,yeah..I cried, like a baby. I never for a real life reason, cried like I did. By the end, I am so tired... But I can't sleep, the words keep on spinning in my head, it's 4 a.m but I can't sleep!!!! So much for a great book, it really take my soul away!!

I heard that they make a movie's based on this book. Do I feel like watching it?? No, I maybe not. Why?? Because I don't want some stupid version of Hollywood mess with the imprinted perfect story in my head..

Jealousy, where does it begin?

It was so long ago before her existence, where her boyfriend is glued to Inez. He has tried everything just to woo Inez..including by sympathy...by selling her name. “I was drown by my gf attitudes”

When she arrived, perhaps it was her sixth sense or that is just who she is… Jealousy for Inez is too overwhelm.. “Who is this Inez, what does guys see in her and not in me?” Probably this is the question that hunting her nightmare. It was unbearable for her, to just sit next to Inez, while she so insecure or nothing and Inez has everything that she wants.

She turned that jealousy to hatred. ’Looks could kill’; literally yes, but if it does, Inez most likely died so many times before.

Boys stick to the beauties like flies while girls fly away from beauties like cockroach..That is what happen in reality. As a typical girl, she hates Inez.. For what? Her beauty? Her intelligence? Or her money?

Her bf tells her Inez tried to woo him not the other around. She is angry, hating Inez. But what frightens her the most is how his bf looks at Inez betray his lie. Deep down in her heart, she knows the truth and she afraid. She knows how unfaithful her bf is. Instead of angry to her bf, she turns them to Inez, for Inez is a reflection of her bf women, sexist; feminist; beauties not a plain girl like her. She needs someone to blame. Not her bf, because she can’t afford to lose him. Plain girl can’t wish for more, is it?? “I can’t ask for more”, is what she thinks..

It’s been a while since I wrote something that I can be proud of. This is a bit of story that I taught will be different if she gives herself a chance, to love herself for who she is.. The hatred blacken her heart, ate her youth. Thinking too much of others, gives no breath to her life. She’s is suffered, drown by her hatred till she can’t see life’s joy. Instead of asking why this happen to her, she supposed to learn how to fix her life. But, she fails and has drowned further…

one fateful day

well, it sure isn't a doomsday but not pleasant s well... march 23, 2009... u c, it was supposed to be a gal's day out, to chill out!! To pretend tht boy doesn't exist in ths world(well, it jz me of cz) Until...

OMG!!! Her scoot's tyre punctured!! well, nthg harm done. But still, it was in a middle of a day.. The HEAT, NOISE & DUST!! And in SUNDAY??? if one day fate bring me s a businesswoman, I WILL NEVER CLOSE my business in Sunday..

Yah, I know..This was not worth to write in blog. Jz tht now I don't feel like writing anythg...Hvn't been myself lately(Stress Mode).So, instead of text, I decide to put more picture. Let the picture speak.

Hello2, cn any1 come n help us??Yani is stressed out!! "WHY?? WHY ME???"
As for me:

PEACE!! Bz seizing the moment with picture.. HAhaha

People's kept staring staring at us, well...who won't?? Who, in their perfect mind will take pictures at the side of road with one punctured scoot??

It was hard steel decision but to call Amad for help(It smthg to do wf a GAL Pride). Then, we'd been to 3 different workshop to find tht none of thm hs Suzuki Step tube. And 3 more closed. We had been circling, from bkt beruang to ayer keroh and guess where we finally meet ths miraculous(in ths term would be, AT LAST!!!) workshop.. Here!! in Tmn Tasik Utama...we should hv stayed home after all, we r so damn tired, but we decide..IT'S PARTY TIME!! Continued to spend quality time in JJ, as if nthg happened tht day...with borrowed bike..

B00k n I....

bookworm?? i m a book lover, but i didn't like the sound of bookworm.. why don't they use more cute phrases,, maybe bookkitty?? or booktiger?? huhu..never mind.. ths topic is all about how come i love books so much.. so many people, especially my housemate been quite speculate my passion or hunger with reading. Books here include comics, novels and magazine.. [cough]...nope, i didn't read much educational books, the last 'educated' book i read is how to make everyone fall in love with you.. :))) (hvnt got experimented all the new details i read). i did wonder sometimes why i do love to read so much. i can't seem to evoke any of my families tht love books as much as i do, but we(me n my siblings; zax, fahmi n atiqah) do seem to worship comics..

I remembered the 1st english book i read is Peter Pan. A gift for 2nd place in class that was given from my class teacher, Mdm Estee Quack in Primary 3. Well, suppose Cinderella for me and Peter Pan for Azroy(top class student) but she's mistakenly gave me the Peter Pan. Well,, i do love Peter Pan more than Cinderella, cz for me Cinderella story will be more interesting if she smack her stepmum in her face. Huhu..

The first novel i read is Darkest Hour by VC Andrews. I got this book from my adopted uncle. It belongs to his late daughter, and he allowed me to take it. I was in Primary 6. I can't remember much but I do know that the book is thicker than any text books at that time.. N lots of words, no picture. But, I still read and took me a year to finish the book!! And believe me, this book ain't for a kid.. Huhu.. 18sx LOL.. The book is full with sorrow from beginning to end.. There is no happy ending,, well VC Andrews is famous for her gothic romances novels.

And since then, I'd been spend lot of time n money for novels. Now, with the existence of internet and rapidshare i can downloaded unlimited novels for my reading pleasure.. I do think it is not fair for the author, because we're supposed to buy their book cz they put lot of effort in writing them. But, I am merely a student will limited money and enourmos passion for reading.. Sorry VC Andrews, Stephanie Meyer, Cornelia Funke, Meg Cabot and all other authors out there. Who ever seen any wishing star, please tell me sooner. Cz I'm gonna wish for a castle full with books, my personal heaven :))

because everyone said so...Trendy or trash??

There were time in my school where everybody talk about bg's brand(i couldn't say wht d brand was,, some people frm my school probably remembered)..Wallets, bags, shirts, bla2... N some will show-off wf pride attitude for thy hd bought bg's. So, I thought because evry1 talks about it, probably bg's really tht great n i decided to check out for my new wallet. My opinion? They r ok..not tht great, jz an exaggeration.. Hey, aesthetic value is abstract so don't get mad at me jz because i didn't fond of ths bg's brand. For tht i m frustrated with bg's collection of wallet, i turn n buy some from tropicana's.. Whn i got back to school, some said "knp bli tropicana? rugi betul baik bli bg". Literally, "u far better off buying bg's rather thn tropicana". So, now i'm not trendy just because i bought a very self-content stuff from different brand, when everyone talks about bg's???

Another example, jz because emily went to genting las weekend, now u need to go to genting too??
Or u wouldn't buy lip gloss jz because ur fren doesn't like to use thm?? (Who's lip gloss is it anyway, tht u hv to consider ur fren??)
Or u want to buy d same dress ur fren bought just to show tht u too, cn be fashionable??
Or afraid to wear differently thn ur fren, because afraid of wht thy may think.. (Did ur fren buy clothes for u??)

Just because some people thought one particular thing is superb, doesn't mean we too, must think tht the thing is awesome too.. I'm not going to say wht people said isn't matter, it just tht u need to be true to urself.. Ask opinion, but on ur own decide, because it's ur life... And most importantly, just because everyone said so doesn't mean it is the best....Be different otherwise u r jz another typical person, ordinary.....

love it!!

This is a dedication, to some1 special.
I love it whn:
1. u showered me wf 'i lv u'.
2. u suprised me wf flowers in a full crowded restaurant.
3. u made me laugh whenever i mad.
4. u held me frm falling whenever i'd slept on a bike ride.
5. people asked u "Is sh ur gf?" n u answered, "no, she's my future wife".
6. u put on helmet for me.
7. u throw your childish grin.
8. u hold my hand at hospital whenever i sick even late at nite.
9. everyone in my family adore u.
10. u look at me like i m a first-prize rather than lucky-winner.
11. u sing a special song about me...
12. u do anythg.. cz i m lucky to hv u in my life...

Friendship!!

Do you think that u r blessed by lot of friends?? Believe me if i say that you wouldn't realize whose ur friend really are till u fall down, really bad..Let's be more dramatic, say if u r going to fall down a cliff. Friend will give their hand, though they know that neither will survive (especially if u like me-44.5kg: max weight, trying to pull some1 like amad-60kg??<--for sure both will fall in few seconds).. Thing is, this stuff only happen in movies. My story is more realistic though:

There was this moment, when I have no1 to turn to.. I was lost, devastated.. Seems like ages ago we are friend, but she still accept me and help me all the way in an open arm.. And I starting to regret few years we haven't been together, wht we hv been missing..
There are 2 people's I cnt live w/o.. One of them is my bestfriend.. She always there, a shoulder to cry on, a light in the nite.. Sound like lesbi, huahaha..but trust me, I'm not.. It just, I used to not trust a person to be too divine in their friendship. I always be surrounded by masked people, full of pretending. Matt Parkman ability, reading minds going to help in this situation. Well, only in drama such thing exists.. It is great to have a very bestfriend in ur bright and not forgotten, the darkness in life!! Thx for always be there!!

How to break up??

There are no right way how to break a relationship. But somehow, at least try to minimize the impact to our once beloved person in a proper way. I'd come across with a friend, who get her last word from his x's: "I'm tired pretending to love u anymore. I'd fell in love with someone else.." <--what a jerk!! After spend nearly 3 years together, how can some people be that cold?? Ok, no love<---I got it, but haven't you heard a word of 'compassionate'? To the person who stay by u when u down and grab u before u fall... Does that 3 years give u more thn jz love?? Friendship, companion <---definitely the purest friendship given. And of course, to add more ice into hs coldness, he asked for ths breakup 3 month before final exam?? Can't u find another perfect timing?? God...Can't u held ur tongue??? It isn't fair if the guy can keep on living like nothg happen and happy wf hs new girlfriend while ths girl have to go through ths purgatory and watching ths guy every single day as she meant nothing to him?? Juz 3 months more,, thn thy both will be apart...why cant ths guy wait till tht moment?? Simple word: Jerk, cold-blooded man!!!

Look into the mirror!!! Now!!!

I always hate my lips.. Cz my lower lip looks waaay too big compare to the upper one. And, my teeth(you hv no ideas) nvr going to help too... but somehow, i was lucky to notice that my eyes are big (ridiculously people find attractive), and that is my friend, is the biggest asset for me.. Basically, what I'm trying to say is we took too much on the bad side to notice the beauty of ourself.. Another example, say if u hv a big butt..u always look at it n feel bad about it..but, what u should think about is, that u have a nice body, curve which are guys could be dreaming off!! Some people would die to hv ur body... Second, usually xl wearers hv quite critical low self-esteem... Let me tell u smthg, s far s i live i always thought tht xl people's are cute..Seriously, I do think so!! All u hv to do is wear appropriate dress, which will emphasize ur beauty..N stop staring down at the floor, look straight into people's eyes!! Now, what I'm trying to say is we always overlook.. We think too much of our scarcity but we simply ignored the part of us that others found beautiful...That's why...Start searching now, looks for the best part of u!!!!

Learning Process

I am still new for this blogging..so, hope u all cn endure this TOO ORDINARY blog..somehow I still wonder, right now, while i'm writing, who the hell is going to read my blog? Huhuhu.. Nvm, still thx for reading.. Basically wht's i'm trying to do in my blog is a girl's perspective of life. And the hardness n pain that we, as a girl (probably woman(wait til i'm matured enaf)) going through in daily life. Well, jz wait til i hv stuff to write about. And b4 putting my hand down, i jz wanna say, English is my 2nd language, so please bear it if my text is sounded like kindergarten students. Huahaha..Ok..c u all soon.Thx for visiting my blog.
P/s: ats desakan, gambar tlh ditarik semula.hahahaha