Congak...

When I first move to a new school in Kuala Terengganu, a teacher was weird because I did very well in my Math exam.. She even thought I was cheating... I can't blame her totally though, because I always get punished for not remembering multiplication table.. Whenever she asked verbally, I failed.. So, she test me again, with a new test paper.. And, still I did splendidly... All the time of exam, she watched me... Since that, i always excused from any verbal quiz ^_^.. no more punishment...yay!!!

This is a bonus question..

7+6=?

Most of u will straight away answer 13..

But for me, d process of answering will be

7+6=(6+6)+1=13

It is d easiest example..

Try a different one,

8x7=?

[8x5]+8+8=56

I took more than a min to answer tht 1...

I wonder if u understand what I wrote? [scrathing my head].. Anyway, so here's d thing.. I m very bad in congak(mental calculating).. I did not notice that I am having that trouble until form 4... But by that time, there's no more trouble bcz of d miracle of calculator..hahaha..

Insya Allah... I will survive

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on

You feel so lost

That your so alone

All you is see is night

And darkness all around

You feel so helpless

You can’t see which way to go

Don’t despair and never loose hope

Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3

Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Everytime you can make one more mistake

You feel you can’t repent

And that its way too late

Your’re so confused, wrong decisions you have made

Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Don’t despair and never loose hope

Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3

Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Insha Allah x3

Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Turn to Allah

He’s never far away

Put your trust in Him

Raise your hands and pray

OOO Ya Allah

Guide my steps don’t let me go astray

You’re the only one that showed me the way,

Showed me the way x2

Insha Allah x3

Insya Allah we’ll find the way

InsyaAllah by Maher Zain..

I m in deadly mood, yes I admit..

I drive fast n dangerous...If u stress ride wf me, jz imagine when I m alone??

I'd throw my money...for a pair sunglass tht i don't need..book tht won't be read..half-eaten cake..

Evrythg doesn't seem right..cakes burned..needles broken..plan ruined..

But, InsyaAllah... I will survive...

Me n my patient

It is really hard to have book fair here in Kuching... so, i won't miss any book fair..So, ths Sunday I went.
I bought 2 books thinking tht it is 70% off for the sign on the desk said so.. The next morning I notice, it was cut to 30% only...
I went there, asking for a redeem.. N the staff said "u r suppose to read the sticker first, it said 30%" with an annoying face..

Hello, what is wrong? is this how you communicate, treat your customer?
What the heck?? Perhaps this is one way for them to kill my patient.

So, here's d thing..

1-they blame the customer to move the books from different place..But nearly all books there has 30% sticker, and they arrange all the books as if 30% and 70% belongs together! In no definite order, 30% n 70% is mixed!!
I mean they rearrange the book so why not at the time they should put back the book to where they belong? N they are put in a desk written big : 70% for member, 60% for non member..

2-about the sticker, there not a single sign saying it, when I point "u should at least put a sign saying tht d price is according to sticker" n she said "it's a common sense!!" what the heck? come to think about it, if you have 2 different price, it's a normal ethic to pay the lowest one.. Especially it's a very old books.. At the same place, I can buy the latest book for 30% !! And, I know they just a bunch of lazy people who hate to do troublesome work..[sigh]

3-what I ask is simple, I don't mind paying for 30% , but all I ask is to be treated as a customer.. Why don't start with "I m sorry for this misunderstanding, miss....."
here, let me emphasize the magic word... SORRY...

Crushing apart

I wonder how it feel to be crush under a big stone.. Is it same as how I feel right now?? Though there's no heavy stone but how I suffocated.. how my heart crushed.. My heart felt heavier each moment as if all air in the world is still not enaf... I keep on breathing, hoping that the heartache will lessen but instead it's growing stronger.. Perhaps now every breath is necessity,no longer a joy.. Maybe my life became meaningless..

I prepared to be hurt..but never will I be prepare to be hurt this much.. No word can express the sadness, emptyness, loneliness that I feel..

Oh, how I didn't show d world how I feel, coz if I do, then it's the end of u and me.. I still clinging, hoping for u... n how I don't want to fall apart.. how I can't remove ur photo, our photo together.. cz it's d only thing that remind me of how wonderful life is..

I LOVE YOU...

but mere love is not enaf... if we are meant for each other, then destiny will bring us back together.. meanwhile, plz open up ur heart.. cz u'll never know what's there for u..

A great book

I read a book in last May. Actually I'm getting tired of thriller and romance, so I decided to change for new genre, science fiction. Not that I don't like them, just that i'd been tired of the low quality of science fiction novels for this past few years. So, the first book I saw that attract my attention was The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger.

I have to admit, I was so caught with the book. 3 days in a row, stop only for life's necessity. No matter how i tried to rest my eyes, I can't. I just can't, I feel like drugged!!!

The Time Traveler's Wife is a story of a couple, Clare and Henry. Henry has some genetic disorder that make him to time travel and because of that Clare started to meet Henry when she was 6 years old. When she 20, she at last met the real (at the moment) Henry who has no idea who she is. She at first sort of frustrated because Henry is not the Henry that she met, for this younger version of Henry is sort of not matured?? And started there, they moving on but you guys probably want to read them so I don't want to spoil your fun... This probably some big spoiler, but I had to tell you all. Do not expect a happily ever after ending, because he died in the end. However, she keep on living for hoping to meet him again when she's probably 82 years old??<--i think. Sigh...so sad.. sound realistic, no?? It's life, sooner or later people died. Why the heck i tell you? Sigh...because I do have some regret for the ending. Anyway, do not worry. To make up, the author give her a new reason to live...

Anyway, this story really succeed on making me laugh and cry. Hate to admit,yeah..I cried, like a baby. I never for a real life reason, cried like I did. By the end, I am so tired... But I can't sleep, the words keep on spinning in my head, it's 4 a.m but I can't sleep!!!! So much for a great book, it really take my soul away!!

I heard that they make a movie's based on this book. Do I feel like watching it?? No, I maybe not. Why?? Because I don't want some stupid version of Hollywood mess with the imprinted perfect story in my head..

Jealousy, where does it begin?

It was so long ago before her existence, where her boyfriend is glued to Inez. He has tried everything just to woo Inez..including by sympathy...by selling her name. “I was drown by my gf attitudes”

When she arrived, perhaps it was her sixth sense or that is just who she is… Jealousy for Inez is too overwhelm.. “Who is this Inez, what does guys see in her and not in me?” Probably this is the question that hunting her nightmare. It was unbearable for her, to just sit next to Inez, while she so insecure or nothing and Inez has everything that she wants.

She turned that jealousy to hatred. ’Looks could kill’; literally yes, but if it does, Inez most likely died so many times before.

Boys stick to the beauties like flies while girls fly away from beauties like cockroach..That is what happen in reality. As a typical girl, she hates Inez.. For what? Her beauty? Her intelligence? Or her money?

Her bf tells her Inez tried to woo him not the other around. She is angry, hating Inez. But what frightens her the most is how his bf looks at Inez betray his lie. Deep down in her heart, she knows the truth and she afraid. She knows how unfaithful her bf is. Instead of angry to her bf, she turns them to Inez, for Inez is a reflection of her bf women, sexist; feminist; beauties not a plain girl like her. She needs someone to blame. Not her bf, because she can’t afford to lose him. Plain girl can’t wish for more, is it?? “I can’t ask for more”, is what she thinks..

It’s been a while since I wrote something that I can be proud of. This is a bit of story that I taught will be different if she gives herself a chance, to love herself for who she is.. The hatred blacken her heart, ate her youth. Thinking too much of others, gives no breath to her life. She’s is suffered, drown by her hatred till she can’t see life’s joy. Instead of asking why this happen to her, she supposed to learn how to fix her life. But, she fails and has drowned further…

one fateful day

well, it sure isn't a doomsday but not pleasant s well... march 23, 2009... u c, it was supposed to be a gal's day out, to chill out!! To pretend tht boy doesn't exist in ths world(well, it jz me of cz) Until...

OMG!!! Her scoot's tyre punctured!! well, nthg harm done. But still, it was in a middle of a day.. The HEAT, NOISE & DUST!! And in SUNDAY??? if one day fate bring me s a businesswoman, I WILL NEVER CLOSE my business in Sunday..

Yah, I know..This was not worth to write in blog. Jz tht now I don't feel like writing anythg...Hvn't been myself lately(Stress Mode).So, instead of text, I decide to put more picture. Let the picture speak.

Hello2, cn any1 come n help us??Yani is stressed out!! "WHY?? WHY ME???"
As for me:

PEACE!! Bz seizing the moment with picture.. HAhaha

People's kept staring staring at us, well...who won't?? Who, in their perfect mind will take pictures at the side of road with one punctured scoot??

It was hard steel decision but to call Amad for help(It smthg to do wf a GAL Pride). Then, we'd been to 3 different workshop to find tht none of thm hs Suzuki Step tube. And 3 more closed. We had been circling, from bkt beruang to ayer keroh and guess where we finally meet ths miraculous(in ths term would be, AT LAST!!!) workshop.. Here!! in Tmn Tasik Utama...we should hv stayed home after all, we r so damn tired, but we decide..IT'S PARTY TIME!! Continued to spend quality time in JJ, as if nthg happened tht day...with borrowed bike..

B00k n I....

bookworm?? i m a book lover, but i didn't like the sound of bookworm.. why don't they use more cute phrases,, maybe bookkitty?? or booktiger?? huhu..never mind.. ths topic is all about how come i love books so much.. so many people, especially my housemate been quite speculate my passion or hunger with reading. Books here include comics, novels and magazine.. [cough]...nope, i didn't read much educational books, the last 'educated' book i read is how to make everyone fall in love with you.. :))) (hvnt got experimented all the new details i read). i did wonder sometimes why i do love to read so much. i can't seem to evoke any of my families tht love books as much as i do, but we(me n my siblings; zax, fahmi n atiqah) do seem to worship comics..

I remembered the 1st english book i read is Peter Pan. A gift for 2nd place in class that was given from my class teacher, Mdm Estee Quack in Primary 3. Well, suppose Cinderella for me and Peter Pan for Azroy(top class student) but she's mistakenly gave me the Peter Pan. Well,, i do love Peter Pan more than Cinderella, cz for me Cinderella story will be more interesting if she smack her stepmum in her face. Huhu..

The first novel i read is Darkest Hour by VC Andrews. I got this book from my adopted uncle. It belongs to his late daughter, and he allowed me to take it. I was in Primary 6. I can't remember much but I do know that the book is thicker than any text books at that time.. N lots of words, no picture. But, I still read and took me a year to finish the book!! And believe me, this book ain't for a kid.. Huhu.. 18sx LOL.. The book is full with sorrow from beginning to end.. There is no happy ending,, well VC Andrews is famous for her gothic romances novels.

And since then, I'd been spend lot of time n money for novels. Now, with the existence of internet and rapidshare i can downloaded unlimited novels for my reading pleasure.. I do think it is not fair for the author, because we're supposed to buy their book cz they put lot of effort in writing them. But, I am merely a student will limited money and enourmos passion for reading.. Sorry VC Andrews, Stephanie Meyer, Cornelia Funke, Meg Cabot and all other authors out there. Who ever seen any wishing star, please tell me sooner. Cz I'm gonna wish for a castle full with books, my personal heaven :))

because everyone said so...Trendy or trash??

There were time in my school where everybody talk about bg's brand(i couldn't say wht d brand was,, some people frm my school probably remembered)..Wallets, bags, shirts, bla2... N some will show-off wf pride attitude for thy hd bought bg's. So, I thought because evry1 talks about it, probably bg's really tht great n i decided to check out for my new wallet. My opinion? They r ok..not tht great, jz an exaggeration.. Hey, aesthetic value is abstract so don't get mad at me jz because i didn't fond of ths bg's brand. For tht i m frustrated with bg's collection of wallet, i turn n buy some from tropicana's.. Whn i got back to school, some said "knp bli tropicana? rugi betul baik bli bg". Literally, "u far better off buying bg's rather thn tropicana". So, now i'm not trendy just because i bought a very self-content stuff from different brand, when everyone talks about bg's???

Another example, jz because emily went to genting las weekend, now u need to go to genting too??
Or u wouldn't buy lip gloss jz because ur fren doesn't like to use thm?? (Who's lip gloss is it anyway, tht u hv to consider ur fren??)
Or u want to buy d same dress ur fren bought just to show tht u too, cn be fashionable??
Or afraid to wear differently thn ur fren, because afraid of wht thy may think.. (Did ur fren buy clothes for u??)

Just because some people thought one particular thing is superb, doesn't mean we too, must think tht the thing is awesome too.. I'm not going to say wht people said isn't matter, it just tht u need to be true to urself.. Ask opinion, but on ur own decide, because it's ur life... And most importantly, just because everyone said so doesn't mean it is the best....Be different otherwise u r jz another typical person, ordinary.....

love it!!

This is a dedication, to some1 special.
I love it whn:
1. u showered me wf 'i lv u'.
2. u suprised me wf flowers in a full crowded restaurant.
3. u made me laugh whenever i mad.
4. u held me frm falling whenever i'd slept on a bike ride.
5. people asked u "Is sh ur gf?" n u answered, "no, she's my future wife".
6. u put on helmet for me.
7. u throw your childish grin.
8. u hold my hand at hospital whenever i sick even late at nite.
9. everyone in my family adore u.
10. u look at me like i m a first-prize rather than lucky-winner.
11. u sing a special song about me...
12. u do anythg.. cz i m lucky to hv u in my life...