My future and let it be mine….

I am tired being told here and there… do this n tht…
Why cant I decide for myself?

M I tht reckless?? Throwing myself to the wild n dangerous life?
Or mayb I am jz hopeless...

I start seeing myself living a dull life.. pretending smthg tht I m not..
A gd daughter, a gd wife n a gd mum… merely gd isn’t enaf...
I want to be d BEST in evrythg
The best daughter, the best wife n d best mum…
How can I achieve if all I do is following wht people said?
Wht best for people might b worse for me…
I m being mold...
Puppet is merely puppet. Thy wont be human...

I want… no, I NEED my time... To figure out what I wanna do…
Why can’t I take my time?

I might be in the picture, but can’t be seen… for I am standing under people’s shadow...